I’m Iris. I’m on a quest for healing and sharing my journey with the world. I have had quite the life as a former military brat, former Air Force officer, and now a retiree. I’m extremely passionate about ending the stigma against mental health, as well as helping others find peace and understanding in their own endeavors with mental wellness. I have a background in Communications and will soon complete certifications in Victim Advocacy and Counseling.
This photo on the left is me performing at a singing contest while I was in the Air Force. I look happy, but at the time, I was unknowingly dealing with cPTSD, anxiety, bipolar 2, and hadn’t slept more than 4 hours a night in months. It’s pretty amazing how much a person can hide behind a smile.
I’m an avid reader and not shy about trying new treatments in an effort to keep healing. I consider myself a student and helper. In my own experience with my mental health, I’ve come to understand that it’s also important to help friends and family members understand how to cope with mental illness. My goal is for this blog to become a source of information to help them better understand what we are going through on a daily basis.
I believe that the journey for healing never is never truly complete. There is always a new skill or idea to learn and apply to our lives. Whether it’s coping skills or breathing techniques, I’m going to try it all. I’m happy to share where I started on my journey and where I am currently. Although the current pandemic is hindering the travel aspect of my soul searching, I’m in the best place I’ve been mentally in years. It’s been quite the ride. Finally, my smile matches how I feel inside. It’s both an achievement and a relief!
You can start reading about my healing journey here at the Healing post Grow Where You Are Planted or Healing Journey Part 1. My blog post was full of hope, yes, but you can see what a long way I’ve come from my personal journal about the same situation. It read, “I don’t understand why this keeps happening? I feel so worthless. Like a complete idiot. Why did I believe I could be happy? Girls like me don’t get happy endings. It was stupid of me to believe that even for a second that someone like me could have dreams that come true. It’s only my nightmares that are true… Could I really have been that blind?”
Since then, I’ve put in a lot of time and work into healing. My journal entries progressed to reading, “I think I’ve successfully accepted who I am now. And not only that, I’m embracing it. There is power underneath the pain. All I had to do was find it and understand all the strength that I didn’t know was there either.”
There are some ups and downs in my posts, but that’s generally how the healing process goes. My posts also reflect a change in outlook and overall satisfaction with who I am and who I am becoming. You can see here in the Healing post Healing Journey Part 2 and Open Letter post Goodbye to Negativity.
I have a great deal of pride about how far I’ve come in the last year. The only thing that would make it better is being to able to share that success and help my readers through theirs.
Lastly, I’d also like to introduce my first novel The Girl in the Mural, which is currently available on Amazon Kindle. I am so excited to have reached this goal. It has been a dream of mine since I was a little girl to become an author. Paper copies will be available soon, follow my social media to get updates!